This might be one of the most insightful blogs I have ever written since most of them have me rambling on about things that have you wondering what the hell am I talking about. This might be a long blog but it will be a good read to really find out what goes on in my life.
Minnie Holly website
I know, it’s been a very long proccess for me to even reach this point to see myself on computer screens all over the globe, but it’s also the most scary and overwelmhing thing I have ever done in my life, Yes ! it’s a big dream of mine of having my own porn website ever since I was little and saw my first porn website, and had the big day of sitting at the bus stop of saying I am going to be a porn star but I never knew how much work it was going to be thank god I got my wake-up call early. I have come a long way then where I was before being that shy webcam girl, now I am taking on some big things and big dicks, but I am looking forward for the journey so one day I can look back and remember how I enjoyed my life.
School
Going back to school, with a serious commitment of knowing what I want to take in university (midwifery) was the hardest decission I ever had to make. after weeks of researching the ways I can finish my high school diploma weighing the pros and cons of GED or OSSD (Ontario Secondary School Diploma), online , in-class, night-school. I started back school officially in November and in a few weeks I will be writting my first 2 exams. I am scared out of my mind I really thought I would never be able to do it not because of my thoughts per-say because of the pressures and opinions from outside people. I know … I know you shouldn’t really focus on what other people think or say. I try not to but their voices do come back to haunt you sometimes. I know, right now things are rough, but my heart is telling me it will all be worth it in the end so I just need to stick with it.
Social Life
I don’t know what it is I always seem to keep a small nit amout of people I talk to on a regular basis but I don’t really do anything to initiate going out and hanging out with friends. I figure it because I have a fear or something but I got use to being a loner, and sticking by myself and just keeping everything bottled up I know its not the best thing to do, but having trust in other people is a hard thing to do when your use to being pushed aside and feeling like an outcast. I am trying to make a point this year in small steps of course to actually make a bigger circle of friends I have no idea how to do that. but I will figure out a way to do it.
2008 is going to be GREAT ! This section is very long read it here
Staying Positive
“I can’t control the wind, but I can control my sails”
“I can’t change the past. I can change my present”
“I am proud of myself for the changes”
” I am worthy of inner peace”
“I am alive and participating in my day”
“I am proud of my accomplishments.”