December 29th, 2007
I finally understand that what those readings I was getting from pshychic finally ment. I had to get it from watching my old time favorite show Xena: the warrior princess . I knew there was a reason why I had to watch the whole series all over again. And some where in Season 4 I got stuck on one particular episode I think it’s number 12 I forgot the name of it but I will have to watch it again later.
It’s something I have been battling with myself to search for but I think I am on the path of finding it. To find my inner stillness I have to clear a path and face whatever comes up and release by releasing the pain. I know it will feel like a fire burning inside of me, but I know it’s something I have to face and come to terms with it and releasing it will allow me to follow my greatest hearts desires of being a midwife. It’s the only way I can access that power of being able to heal people and bring new life into the world. Maybe this whole thing could be a whole bunch of mobojumbo but from all the things I have been through and looking back of the things I no longer hold on to it has some great truth to it.
I know once I have my inner power. I can and will accomplish anything that comes in my path, and I will become who I really am deep down inside by stripping away all my painful layers and all that is left will show my core self and the real me of a pure essence of a radiant light. I am really believing that my past of painful memories and terror really have no power until I am able to face it and gain back my inner power.
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December 29th, 2007
So the other night I did an interview check it out and read it. Interviews are fun they keep me on my toes, and get me really thinking about my porn career, but at the same time they make sure everyone knows who I am.
Read my Interview I did with and here is another interview I did a long time ago Read that one too.
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December 21st, 2007
So today I went out x-mas shopping which I just hate doing, actually I hate shopping all together, but I try and make sure that when I do go shopping I know what I am getting before I even get to the mall, it cuts back on the time I spend in there wonder around looking for something I am not really sure what I want to get.
So I got my sister her Christmas present some gift basket thing wtih a massage oil in it. I got my mommy something too. thank god my mom is so simple to shop for. body lotion and shower gel. it’s wrapped up in that decorative plastic which means she won’t use it just have it on display in the bathroom
She loves those things. and of course for myself I got myself a present and because I was shopping at Yves Rocher with my member card, a lot of the things I got for myself were FREE gifts gotta love the FREE gifts. So I got 2 eye makeup removers lawd knows I need them for the photo shoots coming up, vanilla body exfloiant scrub. I got 2 tote bag free gifts. a Christmas tin box free gift, and a Brazilian wax.
OMG ! I thought I was crazy getting a Brazilian wax I knew I wanted to get one, but never really had the nerve to do it. but with the price of it, and liking Yves Rocher I figured why not. the techincian knew I was nervous as hell, cried a few times, screamed out but after about 20 minutes I was very happy with the results. Really no pain no gain. So Now I am addicted to getting a Brazilian.
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December 17th, 2007
Well it was going to happen eventually, with my limited “real job” experience I can only work so many places. about a week or so ago I sent out my resume via monster.ca
I got a few calls back home agent for swiss chalet, and NCO group some outsourcing company that I worked for before, the thing is they called me for an interview tomorrow, for a part-time starting in January from 5pm to midnight for training and 7pm to 11pm shift at 10.00 an hour with the way things are going right now with my diligent plan of getting out of a debt and keeping myself sane and balanced I am hoping I will get the job but if I do it will make things very difficult with work and the website and etc.
so basically I am just going to play it by ear they said there only one position available the earliest I can get myself to the interview is tomorrow otherwise I would have been there already but what gets me with these places that hire people they don’t really check to see if you worked for them before. my resume has changed so it does not say i worked for them on it anymore, but i am surprised when they call people for interviews they don’t check til your done your first interview and have you waiting and waiting for a call back.
whether I get the job or not it will not effect much that is going on right now because in a few weeks minnieholly.com will be live and I will be finishing my first semester in school on the way of starting my second semester and starting night school, and getting ready to fly out to some where in the states or another part of the world to do a photo/video shoot for my website.
Just having that part-time job for a while will keep the tax man at bay for a while, and having a regular added paycheck coming into my account.
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December 14th, 2007
Well after months and months of searching , and losing money I would call it I finally think I found my stylist, I am not getting to excited about it yet because I haven’t yet really seen her do her work. I figure since Marie Luv has a stylist that handles her wardrobe and hair and make up I definitely need to have one too but of course I keep forgetting the porn industry in Toronto SUCKS!
The big players in porn Toronto just handle their own image themselves, but that alone for me is just too much work so I need to hire someone to handle those things I just can’t handle by myself. So it’s kinda of pointless to ask them because they are white and already made themselves looking like Barbie dolls who can’t really give me the advice I need to create the image I want Minnie Holly to portray.
So in the new year I plan on giving her a trial run to see how she do cause I do not want to be worrying about those things of hair, make up and wardrobe when I going out to LA again or Florida or some other country for my shoots or trade shows.
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December 13th, 2007
So I am watching this tv show online, it also plays on showcase but for some reason I never really had an interest in watching because I just assumed it would be boring to watch. but after watching 3 episodes online I am actually starting to find this show very interesting.
it’s funny how watching it I really appreciate more of being a porn star more then anything else. It’s knowing of how much control I have, and how much power I get from being on the internet and having the world of men jerk off to me and fantasize about me . Being wanted and desired in some cases can be a big turn on for me especially being watched. Also makes me really appreciate the safety and security I have of being on the cyberspace lime light. Like even though porn stars and escorts are different in some cases they are very much the same.
The wonderful thing that I am starting to learn about myself, whether I want to fully admit it or not is that I am a internet porn star, video slut, cam whore, but the words really don’t matter because they just unnecessary titles and antics, to me the whole being a porn star thing is all about being on display and getting fabulous sex.
The number one thing I love about it is the fact that is always a constant self discovery experiment and as I take a new picture, have that video camera rolling for a hot new video for my members or webcam viewers it’s just one more piece to that wonder journey.
This whole new experience should be very interesting to see where it takes me.
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December 9th, 2007
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December 9th, 2007
I was sorting through my old CDs, I was looking for some old pics of myself to post on my blog and in my website in general, and I across this video clip. lol the good old days of just being a simple webcam girl, and dancing around on the camera. I made this video clip sometime in like 2004 maybe and here is comes back to remind me of what I love so much about my career of being a webcam girl/internet porn star.
http://www.camgirlminnie.com/video/minnieclips/minniepreview.wmv
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December 9th, 2007
I have waited all year for this event, and I can’t believe the headache I have right now, the room is spinning and my head is pounding. From the bits and pieces I can remember I seem to have had a really great time, and I am too hung-over to even write anymore it hurts when I do,
but here are some pictures to give you an idea what happened I know they aren’t much but I forgot my memory card so I had to use the camera memory to get some pics to at least remind myself I was there.
Edit Time 1:30 pm EST the same day as this blog - Something from last night is coming back this part I remember hanging out with an old friend that surprisingly I still have a big crush on. I remember telling my friend I was going to go take pictures, and before I knew it I was upstairs in the gym fucking. I am shocked it was even possible of happening, and around like 30 minutes later I remember cum being every where it was just everywhere.
OMG ! what a night can’t wait til next year.
The friends I invited to the christmas party last night I never saw them for the whole night it was great. Expect for Trixie since I invited her myself I wanted to make sure she was comfortable and taken care of, We ended up going to the after party together, I wanted to make sure I had an idea where she was and she was ok, she seemed to have herself a pretty good time at the after party. Glad to know she could handle herself did not want to put in an ackward situation. It was great to see that my friends got an idea of my life is like and I got to make sure I made some serious deals for my website release party I am planning for the spring.
Last night it was a great success I can’t wait til the next event.
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November 30th, 2007
I recently noticed some media buzz about a fellow internet model, some people might have seen about it on the News (ABC) lately, I am not going to talk about it much just because it’s way to close to home for myself, and my past exerpience there is just somethings about me the world does not need to know, all I am going to say is I hope this model is safe, I know it’s hard to even remotely think what she is going through right now I do not need a flashback right now, but I need to keep the idea that she will return to her safe place of family and friends and live her life the way she should be. I am sending out my guardian angel for her right now she needs him more then I do.
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